Valentine's Day sucks!

Tonight K just would not go to bed. I asked Chris to please put her to bed because I had class from 10pm - 11pm. He just would not listen, He kept insisting that it was my fault that K would not go to bed because she took a late nap. Now after K colored her entire room today and did a whole bunch of things, I put her down for a nap, and yes it was a late nap because if not I would have lost it. She was misbehaving a lot today.

He's always telling me that he wants me to work, but he won't support me in school and I have a paper that was due last night and it's still not done, because he can't take care of his kids. I've had enough of this! I'm tired of him complaining about me not working all the time, when he doesn't support me in what I try to do. He leaves his snot filled garbage all over the floor and I have to constantly pick it up. I cant' take it anymore! I'm gonna kill someone!

It's fuckin Valentine's Day for godsake, Can't he just be good to me for once? I wish he would just go away!

I'm sick and tired of this shit!

I am sick and tired of the internet stalkers that have been stalking my friend and I for the past few years. I am tired of the drama and bullshit that we've had to go through! I want them to all just go away & dissapear. Most of all, I'm tired of all the crap I've always had to go through.

If it's not one thing, it's another. First it was the stupid shit with my father, then I was raped (and if you didn't know this, YES, I was raped at 16), the the shit I dealt with with Will, then the shit I dealt with on my Wedding Day & soon after, and the bullshit I deal with now.

I am DONE! I have moments where I just want to crawl under a table and let the world go away. I hate the cold and I want to curl up and be warm. I want to go out and walk and do things and I can't cause It's too damn cold and I can't dress warm enough. I am tired of being told by my father that my son should not be taking a daily vitamin because according to him "he's overweight". My son is a big boy and he's healthy and not even off the charts for his height and weight. He's around the 60th percentile. All of this, makes me just want to get up and leave from where I live and leave everyone behind. But for some reason, I'm being drawn back.

I don't know what it is, or why this is happening. I'm young, but everything life has thrown at me, I've overcame over a period of time, but why can't things just start going great for me????