Busy...

Things have been busy here. I had a birth to attend. This week is crazy, I am meeting with a couple of clients, I have a yankee game and then a birth (induction) at the end of the week.

I am so tired tonight. I wish I could just crawl into bed and sleep but I have too much billing to do.

LOL

LOL..Yesturday was a funny day. We gave away two of Lily's babies while at the park. We spent the whole day there and K kept taking her bucket and filling it with water and then spilling it on herself by dumping it over her own head, it was really Hot out.

I talked to Desi last night too. He got sick from DR and ended up with Parasites in the the hospital. Today we went to my moms for a few hours, K had a lot of fun. I had to read a couple of chapters for class so I did that while she played with my brother. I also got laundry done.

I'm thinking about what to do tomorrow. I might take them to the park, or the beach, not sure yet. Monday it's suppose to be like 96! God help us all. I got intouch with a bunch of people I knew in elementary and junior high that I went to school with which is crazy all cause of myspace. Who needs classmates.com when you have myspace? lol


Oh yea, and if you're tired of reading my daily ramblings, then STOP coming back and reading them.
I'm off to bed in a few....Till next time..

GRRRRR!!!

So this morning started out with Moca biting my finger cause he got cotton stuck around his foot and his circulation was being cut off so I spent a half hour getting the cotton out with a cuticle scissor, while he bit my finger a few times. It hurt like a bitch.

Then my brother calls that my parents have RENTED a house a Long Island for 2 weeks and that I can't come cause "there is no room for you". Ummm ok. Thanks for telling me. I feel hurt by this cause my mom knows how much I need to get out of the city for a couple of weeks. Then I tell my grandmother what happened and she started saying that my mom needs a break from my kids and all this other shit. I'm like WTF? Isn't my little brother going to be there anyway? Not like she is getting rid of all kids? Then she goes on to say how I'm going to TN for 12 days in September and I'm like, Yea FOR SCHOOL AND TRAINING! I Will be up all times of the day and night while I'm there. She tried acting like it was no big deal and said, Well you won't have the kids. Yea, I might not have MY kids, but I will be dealing with laboring moms. GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

With everything that's going on with jackass, I just need to get out of the city for at least a week. To go somewhere, even if it's just me and the kids. I know it's not going to happen, but I can only wish, right?
I want to cry right now, it is sooo unfair. Last night jackass would not get M a bottle while I was literally on my knees hooking up the Vonage adapter behind the computer, I got so mad at him. He was telling me that I should get it, while he was doing NOTHING AT ALL! I got soooo pissed, I told him to get the Fuck up and take care of his kid. I can't wait for this marriage to be OVER! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

The art of Nipple twisting...

or so he thinks...Nipple twisting. Yes, I said it, NIPPLE TWISTING. That's what jackass decided to do to me this morning till I was in tears, shaking and crying from the pain. His reason was so that he could let out the anger he has built up from me not allowing him into the OR when K was born, and leaving him now. He is one twisted, sick puppy. I am so pissed off at him.

On another note, I can't wait to get out of here and I know that I can find other guys out there. A and I were on the phone last night till 3am. I absolutely love the guy to death, and no, not in that way. He has helped me so much since I met him, last night I FINALLY GOT PHOTOSHOP! WOO HOO!!! And it was all because of him!

I'm going out next weekend to the Comedy Club. I can't wait. A NIGHT OUT TO MYSELF! YEAH BABY! I SOOOOOOO NEED THAT!

I'm gonna kill someone!!!

This was yesturdays vent:

I'm gonna kill him! I'm gonna kill him myself!!! I have to go out and get K milk cause we don't have anymore so I told dh I would take her with me. All I wanted him to do was CHANGER HER DIAPER so that I CAN GET READY!!! He has been arguing with me for the past half hour about whether or not he will change her diaper. This is soooo pissing me off. I have had enough of this man! All the arguing has now woken up M and now he tried telling me that I have to take both kids with me. Screw that!


Ok now for today:

My grandmother came over, and of course I got blamed for EVERYTHING in this house. It's my fault dh's shoes were in the middle, my fault Kristyna took all the toys out of the box, my fault that Dh pees all over the Fuckin toilet and doesn't clean it up, my fault that he drops things and doesn't pick them up! I've just had enough. I'm at the verge of tears. There are weird things going on with my body and I've been spotting for the last couple of days. I'm at the point of flipping out on someone. I feel like shit overall. I sooo need to see my shrink and sometime soon before I flip. UGHHHHHH