I'm sick and tired of this shit!

I am sick and tired of the internet stalkers that have been stalking my friend and I for the past few years. I am tired of the drama and bullshit that we've had to go through! I want them to all just go away & dissapear. Most of all, I'm tired of all the crap I've always had to go through.

If it's not one thing, it's another. First it was the stupid shit with my father, then I was raped (and if you didn't know this, YES, I was raped at 16), the the shit I dealt with with Will, then the shit I dealt with on my Wedding Day & soon after, and the bullshit I deal with now.

I am DONE! I have moments where I just want to crawl under a table and let the world go away. I hate the cold and I want to curl up and be warm. I want to go out and walk and do things and I can't cause It's too damn cold and I can't dress warm enough. I am tired of being told by my father that my son should not be taking a daily vitamin because according to him "he's overweight". My son is a big boy and he's healthy and not even off the charts for his height and weight. He's around the 60th percentile. All of this, makes me just want to get up and leave from where I live and leave everyone behind. But for some reason, I'm being drawn back.

I don't know what it is, or why this is happening. I'm young, but everything life has thrown at me, I've overcame over a period of time, but why can't things just start going great for me????